About me
Hello,
I bet you would like to know how to contact me and get to know me better. Well I have had a lot of trouble through my years of school. I've had my good times and bad, my ups and downs just like all people. I am human like everyone else. I have made many mistakes and I am not even close to perfect. No one is perfect and know one should judge you for creating a new you. I'm the kind of person who hates when people are judged just for being who they are.
I used to get so mad at myself for not pleasing everyone and always trying to be the best I could be (I would push myself to the limit). Whenever I didn't please someone I felt so bad I felt like it was all my fault.It took me a while but, then I realized why. Why do I keep trying to please everyone else when I'm making myself miserable? So I decided to make myself happy and stop trying to please everyone with every thing I do. People still come to me when they need someone to talk to or when they need advise on something. I still hang out with my same friends and actually I've made more. Turns out they like me better when I'm not trying to be a people pleaser and I like myself better too.
I had to grow up at a really young age because everyone in my family was 8+ years older than me and I'm talking everyone (95% anyway). I have one person in my whole entire family that is even close to my age. My siblings, my cousins, my aunts, uncles, all so much older than I am. I learned to act older to be more mature and just grow up when I didn't really need to. People have always told me to act like a kid when I have the chance but, I never really learned how to be a kid because, I had always tried to take the high road try to do things for others benefit. That's why I've put my life to paper because, people my age think I'm to mature and can't act like a kid. So I've never really fit in with kids my age. Then when I tried to hang out with teachers or adults I could be that grown up person that I really am but, when they want to do something older then I have to go home or to my room cause even though on the inside I'm older but, on the outside I was still that little kid that couldn't fit in anywhere. I learned that being by yourself wasn't so bad. I was that girl who sat in Math class and tried to help everyone that needed it they remembered who I was but, I was never important. I was that one person that wasn't important but, I had those words that everyone needed to hear.
Friends was always a hard word for me to really connect with. They have always been off and on, never one that sticks for a long time. The only Amazing friends that I have ever had live very far away from where I do and have never really kept in contact with them. At times I thought I had some really good friends but, then they would prove me wrong and stab me in the back. I know that seems really harsh but, it's true if I would say one word wrong or mess up in one of my classes they would put a bad spin on it and it would be all over the school and everything would spread like wild fire. I always really disrespected that a lot. Friends have never been a good topic for me. There has always been more bad than good in 95% of my friendships. I don't really have that many good friends in my life. The thing with having those kinds of friends in the past helps you prepare for the life ahead.
I really don't like this stereotype. A lot of people say you either have to be that nerdy/geeky book worm or that popular sporty jock. I actually think a lot of people have both in them maybe a little more one side then the other but definitely both. I would have to say that I am both. I am a geek that loves school and books and helping people in class. But, I also have that hard rock, sporty girl. I will try any sport that anyone throws at me. I love to be that daring girl who will stick her neck out and see what's out behind the next corner. Sometimes I will read the book to know just how to do things right but, sometimes I will try something a little bit different just to have the experience of doing it. Don't get me wrong it's good to follow the rules but, sometimes you just need to be a bit daring.
I have many different likes and dislikes just like all people. These up above don't even come close to all of them but, these are the main ones. You see if you read it carefully that I put my heart and soul in my words. On this site I want you to be honest with who you are. I'm not going to try to make you think that I'm some sort of little perfect person. Because trust me I am not perfect and I don't want you to think of me like that. I want you to think of me as a normal person just like you.
I bet you would like to know how to contact me and get to know me better. Well I have had a lot of trouble through my years of school. I've had my good times and bad, my ups and downs just like all people. I am human like everyone else. I have made many mistakes and I am not even close to perfect. No one is perfect and know one should judge you for creating a new you. I'm the kind of person who hates when people are judged just for being who they are.
I used to get so mad at myself for not pleasing everyone and always trying to be the best I could be (I would push myself to the limit). Whenever I didn't please someone I felt so bad I felt like it was all my fault.It took me a while but, then I realized why. Why do I keep trying to please everyone else when I'm making myself miserable? So I decided to make myself happy and stop trying to please everyone with every thing I do. People still come to me when they need someone to talk to or when they need advise on something. I still hang out with my same friends and actually I've made more. Turns out they like me better when I'm not trying to be a people pleaser and I like myself better too.
I had to grow up at a really young age because everyone in my family was 8+ years older than me and I'm talking everyone (95% anyway). I have one person in my whole entire family that is even close to my age. My siblings, my cousins, my aunts, uncles, all so much older than I am. I learned to act older to be more mature and just grow up when I didn't really need to. People have always told me to act like a kid when I have the chance but, I never really learned how to be a kid because, I had always tried to take the high road try to do things for others benefit. That's why I've put my life to paper because, people my age think I'm to mature and can't act like a kid. So I've never really fit in with kids my age. Then when I tried to hang out with teachers or adults I could be that grown up person that I really am but, when they want to do something older then I have to go home or to my room cause even though on the inside I'm older but, on the outside I was still that little kid that couldn't fit in anywhere. I learned that being by yourself wasn't so bad. I was that girl who sat in Math class and tried to help everyone that needed it they remembered who I was but, I was never important. I was that one person that wasn't important but, I had those words that everyone needed to hear.
Friends was always a hard word for me to really connect with. They have always been off and on, never one that sticks for a long time. The only Amazing friends that I have ever had live very far away from where I do and have never really kept in contact with them. At times I thought I had some really good friends but, then they would prove me wrong and stab me in the back. I know that seems really harsh but, it's true if I would say one word wrong or mess up in one of my classes they would put a bad spin on it and it would be all over the school and everything would spread like wild fire. I always really disrespected that a lot. Friends have never been a good topic for me. There has always been more bad than good in 95% of my friendships. I don't really have that many good friends in my life. The thing with having those kinds of friends in the past helps you prepare for the life ahead.
I really don't like this stereotype. A lot of people say you either have to be that nerdy/geeky book worm or that popular sporty jock. I actually think a lot of people have both in them maybe a little more one side then the other but definitely both. I would have to say that I am both. I am a geek that loves school and books and helping people in class. But, I also have that hard rock, sporty girl. I will try any sport that anyone throws at me. I love to be that daring girl who will stick her neck out and see what's out behind the next corner. Sometimes I will read the book to know just how to do things right but, sometimes I will try something a little bit different just to have the experience of doing it. Don't get me wrong it's good to follow the rules but, sometimes you just need to be a bit daring.
I have many different likes and dislikes just like all people. These up above don't even come close to all of them but, these are the main ones. You see if you read it carefully that I put my heart and soul in my words. On this site I want you to be honest with who you are. I'm not going to try to make you think that I'm some sort of little perfect person. Because trust me I am not perfect and I don't want you to think of me like that. I want you to think of me as a normal person just like you.